As Promised

Making the most of the morning

Eager to find a comfortable position

Do I stay on the bed or get down on the cushion?

It takes no time at all

To settle in and breathe deeply

And before I know it, before I can plan it, before I can schedule it

Time slows

In

Out

Namaste

THINGS I DO WHILE MEDITATING

Following the crystal bowls

Planning

Remembering

Trying to hear my mother’s (my father’s) voice

Strategizing

Thinking about thinking

Meta-thinking

Thinking about what meta-thinking is

Breathing

Thinking about creating a word poem: 

M

E

D

I

T

A

T

I

O

N

Thinking about my children

Locating feeling in my body

Noticing

Noticing anxiety

Noticing fear

Noticing memory

Following my breath

Wondering how long it’s been

Congratulating myself for doing this for so long

Writing this blog post

Getting excited thinking about writing this blog post

Relaxing

Counting each breath

Putting my hand over my located-anxiety reiki-style

Remembering my mother having a reiki session before she died

Thinking about my upcoming trip

Thinking about my carry on

Thinking about what to wear on the plane.

And now......

Please note: no anger, hostility, rage, self-blame, self-loathing, sarcasm, mocking went into the meditating or the writing of this blog post.